Saturday, October 15, 2005

If Only You Knew

If only you knew,
If only you knew,
If only you knew,
If only you knew.

How empty life is without you,
How much I love you,
How easily you make me laugh,
How it hurts to see you turn and leave me.

That I want to be with you every moment,
That this realtionship scares me,
That I hope you are the one,
That this thought makes me want to run away.

Why I yell at you,
Why I never want you to make me first priority,
Why you frighten me,
Why nobody ever compares.

Then, maybe, one day, I could spend forever with you because you make me happy, and I love life when I am with you. If only you knew, then we would not be able to learn about each other and make each day different and challenging. I love you, and I love us. I would not change it for anything, not even Keith Urban. Sorry, babe, but you are too great, and your accent is cuter. If only every person was as lucky as we are...

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Distance

I want to be with you,
Every moment, and every second.
Be that person standing next you,
Complete, blissful, amazing; that is how we are.

But we keep fighting, keep arguing,
And it is frustrating.
Wanting what you cannot have,
Hurting the person you need the most.

Feeling insecure, and unsure.
When did the distance become tangible?
We keep hoping; saying we will last,
But not telling each other what we are truly thinking.

Never imagined it would be this difficult,
With every thought filled with you, making it harder.
I don’t know what is in your mind,
And that scares me.

I love you.

10/8/05

Her World

Looks outside, sees nothing
What else is new?
This is her life.
It passes by.

Cannot imagine what is past her window, through her front door, after her street.
What do you want?
Do you live just to exist?
What does your mind tell you?

She closes her eyes, thinks, smiles;
What does she dream? What does she see?
Wants to writes songs, take pretty pictures, own the essence of beauty, be an athlete.
Everything is perfect, sensual, feeds her soul.

Night falls.
Darkness encloses her.
She lies down, weeps.
A tear for everything she is not.

9/10/05