My Last Family Vacation

This weekend, my parents, my brother, and I went to LA for our last fmaily vacation. We started out on Thursday and stayed in San Luis Opisbo for the night, It was so weird being back in SLO, my brother's former college town. My family and I kept getting on each others nerves, and it seemed like the vacation was going to be a waste. the next day, we drove from SLO to LA. It took about 6 hours, and it was okay. No big whoop. We started to get along better. Anyway, on Saturday, we went to Universal Studios. That was alot of fun. We did the studio tour, and the shows, and the rides. We were all laughing, and relaxed. Dinne was fun, but we ate so much. By the time we got back to the hotel, we were exhausted! I went to bed, and slept for a blisssful 12 hours, which I will not be able to do after next week. Today, Sunday, we met with my uncle who I have not seen in about 8 years. It was good to see him, and to talk. Tonight was my cousin's husband's 50th birthday celebration. He did not know that we were coming, so he was really happy to see us. It was so much fun. We met many people, and the food was delicious! It was good to see Reshmie, Marty, and the kids before I leave. I know that I am going to miss them so much. So, that is my family vacation. It has turned out to be an awesome time. Tomorrow, we drive the 10 hour trip home. It is going to be adrag, but it brings me closer to my beautiful blue room, and the greatest guy in the entire world. Peace out, ya'll!

You

I do not know what to write about you,
But my chest is heavy with decalaration.
My craft is weak, and my hand is idle.
Weeks have passed, but words have not.
I want to describe you through writing;
That touch, that smile.
When we kiss, you hold my face in your hand.
It causes me to forget about your lips.
This one gesture, amazing.
Feeling your eyes on me, staring.
I never acknowledge it, yet I bask in it.
Your sweet nothings are everything.
My laugh comes easy around you,
And I only want to make you happy.
So glad you are in my life.
I smile.

05/01/05

Want, Need

Want to fight, want to be perfect.
Need to fight, need to be perfect.
What to do?
Everything wrong, fail one way or another.
Want to run, feel the hard paement under my feet.
Run, run, run, run, run, run, run.
Just me, just me;
Me, my body, my mind.
Think of nothing, breathe.
Run, run, Laura, run!
You can do this, finish the fight.
Lord, help me o do this.
Tired of quitting, tired of excuses.
Focus, focus!
Let it go, run.

4/14/05

Blank Page

A blank page, a clean start,
If only my soul were the same
I am so lost, so confused, so different.
Everything has changed.
Alone once again.
Why did I ahve t lose so much to grow?
Now I have what they want.
Lonliness is the road I walk,
This unclean, ashamed wench.
When will happiness come?
Do I look in the wrong places?
They made me happy.
Will I ever make me happy?
Seventeen going on nothing.
Life passes, choices are made, will I survive?
Memories haunt me, pictures make me flinch.
I wasted so much time, lost so many chances.
I anger those I love;
Love those who hurt and harm.
Sometimes I miss her,
That girl, my childhood, my laugh.
At times, I see her,
But I do not know how to keep her.
I hurt, I bled, I scream, I cry,
Then I clean up and smile.
Why? Is it real or fake?
Someone tell me because I do not know.

12/23/04

Lies

Our song plays, the world continues.
Why did we not work out?
You scent fills my thoughts
As I dream of your face, your love.
I denied it for so long,
But I loved you.
I love you, I love you.
It will not stop.
You promised not to hurt me, no harm,
Yet gave me nothing else.
Were the moments fake,
The words lies?
Never again, never again.
Yet, I still cry for you.
I prayed for the pain to stop.
The hole to be filled.
You keep breaking free.
Leave me alone!
Why did you do it?
Why could you not leave me alone?
Let me grow, stay innocent and happy,
Remain a girl for a little longer, waiting for my prince.
At a glimspe, you were my prince.
Yet another lie.

11/05/04

Just Leave Me

Sometimes I regret you,
Sometimes I hate you.
You took advantage of me;
My youth, my beauty, my adoration.
I was too good for you.

Sometimes my passion remerges,
Somtimes I cry.
I want you to leave me.
Why did you have to do it?
Why couldn't you just leave me alone?

My memories burn;
With digust, with pain, with anger.
We could have been so good,
And I would have sacrificed.

I was an ugly, wretched girl,
naive and wanting to play dess up.
Now I am a woman,
Strong but scratched.
Why can't you just leave me alone?
Just leave me.

Never Mine

I want you here right now,
To see your face, look into your eyes, feel your gaze.
I want to be around you,
To talk with you, learn yur oves and hates;
Talk of God, of school, of life,
Of me.
Pull your arms around me,
Hold me, protect me, care for me.
Let me touch your face,
Learn your smile and frown.
Tell me again that I am beautiful,
Again and again.
Dance with me int eh rain,
Take my hand and let my joy fill our world.
I want to be in your mind, on your ming,
Never forget.
Make m laugh and smile,
At life, at love, at everything.
As we say good-bye
Look at me, know me, miss me.
Do not forget.
Do not lie to me, do not hurt me, do not leave.
But you were never mine,
Never mine to hold or talk to,
To smile with or look at.
You were never mine.


Aurora liked this one, and I forgot to put it up until now. Sorry it took a year.